Originality and Imagination Areas Where You Are Creative, Unique, Unstable, or Compulsive

Most people do not see your wild, daring, “crazy” side, and you yourself may be unaware of it! You tend to hold back the unconventional, inventive, impulsive side of you nature – or to live it out only in your private fantasies. You may have strange dreams!

You are yielding, gentle, and impressionable. You tend to “melt” into your surroundings, and do not make a very powerful, vivid impression on others. Especially while young, you may not have a very clear sense of identity.

Sensitive and compassionate, you do not enjoy fighting and no matter what you profess, you are a pacifist at heart.

You may have a deep aversion to groups, associations, clubs, or organizations of any kind. Any such group you become involved in is likely to be either for intense personal growth, change, and healing, or centered around social change and revising society in some manner.

You have a restless spirit and could be a revolutionist or rebel. Your total disregard for convention may cause you to be very rebellious, going your own way without regard for what others say or think. You also could be prone to suffer inner conflicts.

Your emotional excitability is very high and you require a lot of rest and relaxation to function properly. You are a slave to your feelings and follow your spontaneous inspirations, but tend to carry them out without the proper planning beforehand.

You tend to underestimate your ability to succeed and are often unable to follow through on your intentions. You are quick to resign, easily drained and should guard against depression and negative mental, emotional or physical reactions.

You have a somewhat melancholic nature and probably lack self-confidence. Feeling inferior, you are likely to fear things that are not at all threatening to others. A sense of anxiety for no apparent reason may cause you to feel depressed at times.

You are inclined to dominate people and to use or manipulate others for your own ends. You have a strong need to be in control and to exercise influence over others. You also have a desire to achieve record performances in groups you may be involved with.

If I represented my country or state, my power comes from the people. If the people think they need me in my position, they will keep me there. But if they don’t, they will kick me out.

If I ran a Pharmaceutical company I must be aware to two things.

A) If I’ll sell good products, my customers will recover and they won’t need me anymore: I’ll lose my customers

B) If I’ll sell bad products, my customers will die: I’ll lose my customers

So the question is: what is the right way to follow in order to not lose your customers or the people’s support?

The answer is quite easy: the secret is to keep them in agony, so they’ll need me forever. But how can I keep people in constant agony?

It’s really simple. I must use the TERROR.

Here are a few examples.

– If the people don’t like my government: I must give them a tragedy (9/11) and the support would naturally come to me.

- If the people began to think they don’t need medicine: I must give them a virus which kills thousands of them and later convince them that I found a cure.

The secret is to convince people that they decide that they have the power: All I need to do is LIE, KILL and STEAL.

If everyone died I couldn’t keep my power on any one person. But if just some would die, the situation would be most gratifying.

Once an author becomes famous or has written a best seller, his or her next book will be eagerly anticipated. When this new book arrives onto our bookstores’ shelves you find that it’s in hardback. Anyone can tell you that hardbacks cost a lot more than paperbacks. And if you want to wait for the paperback you could wait up to a year.

The more you think about it, the stranger it becomes. That’s two separate print runs, two separate sets of distribution and two separate marketing campaigns.

Doesn’t it seem odd that even though hardbacks are more expensive and makes the paperback product look less appealing to our everyday consumer it’s actually a way of squeezing more money out of people who just can’t wait to read these new books and that usually means more money for the book sellers, publishing houses and the authors.

The world belongs to the energetic.
- Ralph Waldo Emerson (1803 – 1882)

What you are is a question only you can answer.
- Lois McMaster Bujold, The Warrior’s Apprentice, 1986

Success usually comes to those who are too busy to be looking for it.
- Henry David Thoreau (1817 – 1862)

The man of knowledge must be able not only to love his enemies but also to hate his friends.
- Friedrich Nietzsche (1844 – 1900), Ecce Homo, Foreword

Nature is trying very hard to make us succeed, but nature does not depend on us. We are not the only experiment.
- R. Buckminster Fuller (1895 – 1983), Interview, April 30, 1978

Areas That Challenge You Or Are Difficult For You

You yearn for, and fear, being emotionally vulnerable with others and experiencing deep emotional intimacy. Trusting others and letting yourself be known in a deep way doesn’t come easily to you, and sexual inhibitions may result from this. You are very self-protective and may be compulsively secretive. Learning to relinquish control in personal relationships, and to be completely open, are important tasks for you.

You are generally not a “joiner” and do not feel comfortable in clubs, organizations or other groups of people that are centered around some common ideal or interest. If you do participate in a group, you may find the rules and procedures restrictive – or you may simply feel that you do not fit in with the others.

Being alone or with older, more experienced people suits you better than being with groups of your own peers.

You are suspicious of groups, crowds, and social organizations. You are quick to notice social games and insincerities, and you avoid the limelight and glamour. You are direct and to the point in speech and manner, stubborn and inflexible, and often unwilling to communicate your innermost feelings and thoughts.

Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which you instinctively and habitually revert to when under stress – a mostly unconscious process and one which you are apt to overdo because it is so familiar and thus easy for you. The direction you need to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.

When under stress you are apt to close down the flow of your emotions, ignoring your needs and feelings in order to do what you perceive as your duty or simply what the practical realities of the situation require. This can lead to a certain rigidity and hardness. If overdone, self-control, self-discipline, or an exaggerated concern over what society, family or others expect of you makes life more a burden than an adventure.

Developing tenderness, caring, feeling, and the feminine, nurturing aspects of yourself is an important step in your unfolding. You need to learn how to nourish and lovingly attend to both yourself and others. Letting yourself be taken care of sometimes is okay!

The arena you are most likely to wrestle with these issues is in your marriage and other intimate, one-to-one relationships. You may see the qualities you need to develop more fully (described above) in your partner. It is important for you to recognize, appreciate, and listen to the people in your life who express such attributes, as well as developing them yourself. Put energy and attention into learning about others, and about yourself through others.

The specific habits which are likely to hold you back, or which you are prone to overdo, especially during stressful periods, include:

Escapism through fantasy, intoxicants, or unreal, vicarious activities (television, movies, etc.), passivity, waiting for a miracle instead of taking constructive steps to help yourself, aimlessness or an inability to make and keep commitments, and self deception regarding other people, being a martyr.

You have a strong desire to take part in social functions and entertainment and cultivate an active exchange of thoughts with others. You also appreciate associations and have the ability to carry enterprises to a successful conclusion in team-work.

You co-operate well with others and have the ability to give and receive stimulating suggestions. You are always receptive to new ideas and ready for spontaneous group efforts. You seem to have an instant recall of things and are likely to act just as quickly.

I am NOT going to the US to study. Although it was my dream to become a Film Director I realize that I actually only ever wanted to tell great stories. Stories can be told in many mediums. One of which is through computer animations. The great thing I love about computer animation is that it is never restricted. Actually it is. Only by your imagination.

If you folks remembered last year I spent quite some time in preparing a Portfolio to send to DigiPen. I sent my application, portfolio and write-up to Redmond.

I was pretty excited about it until they replied with the heartbreaking news that they won’t be opening in January 2008. And rumor had it that they were not coming to Singapore.

Guess what, while I was in the midst of sending my application to Fullsail, I got a email saying that I have been accepted into DigiPen Singapore and my 4 year Course will start this coming September.

Anyone who has a sense of arithmetic symbols would realize that by staying in Singapore and studying one would spend less. Besides if I stay in Singapore a little longer I get to do accomplish all my other goals I have set for myself.

By the way, this course has only twenty students. Some of you might call it lucky. Well I don’t care what you call it. I call it hard work. It’s the only thing I know that brings results.

I feel detached. I feel I am not of this world. I do not share the same camaraderie of my fellow men. All my life, I cannot remember now if it was my fault or just people’s reaction towards me that I feel the world is nothing but a hologram.

Even in love I feel as though everything is fabricated. The bonds we share seem so artificial. Sometimes I wonder why human beings evolved into the predominant species only to find themselves intertwined with jealousy, hatred and unnecessary religions. We could have been so much more but no we choose the question that which our feeble minds cannot fathom.

Even now I feel the deepest desire to write proper all my thoughts knowing full well that I might lose the capacity to think about my own existence in the future. What then? What becomes of my existence? Can I even contemplate my very own existence or gods or heavens or hells? Or could I just allow myself to believe that there are heavens in the sky and angels and all my dead ancestors waiting to welcome me.

Why is there a deep soul piercing desire to unlock the mystery of life? And why is there a temptation among all men to live like kings and women as Queens. I seriously do not know why the world has come to be and why we all have die like dogs.

I do not even know why I am writing my thoughts. Maybe if I told you the truth you might understand. I just can’t believe that I am alive and am a creature capable of thinking about the future.

There was so much I wanted …to say, …to scream, …to shout.

But I just don’t have the strength to conjure up the words.

I going to lie down and dream a little.

Hopefully when I get up, I shall have the strength to address the issues that has been plaguing me.