It’s that time of life, where you see your friends and loved ones in relationships.

Some of them have already tied the knot.

Real life stuff gets you thinking.

I never really wanted to achieve anything in life or even seriously considered marriage.

I just wanted to know why I was born, why I had to listen to others and what’s the point of it all?

I realize that I don’t have anyone in my life at this moment and perhaps never really had anyone.

Getting married and starting a family all seems so foreign to me.

I don’t know if I will ever get married or even have a lasting relationship with anyone.

Like everything else in life, I just don’t know.

But it would be nice if there’s someone waiting, just for me.

I know I have to put effort in to get something out.

Sometimes this timing is extremely inconvenient.

Love, it comes when one least expects it.

Sometimes it’s necessary to let love wait, however impatiently, for other priorities.

Sometimes it’s necessary to drop everything, clear off space and run with it.

How to know? I’ve gotta tell you, I don’t know for sure.

If you told me one year ago, I was to be marking assignments from the Singapore Poly I would have laughed at you.

But here I am marking assignments.

I couldn’t even fathom being hired without a degree, all I had to do was just show up with a portfolio.

Where is this life of mine leading to, I do not know.

I have missed so many boats at the harbor it is a wonder why I am a still a hopeful.

I have never asked for a difficult life, but that’s all I have ever got.

Somehow I have made it work.

Looking back, I realize so many missed opportunities to have meaningful relationships.

That is if I am permitted to say such things in a Darwinian world.

Every person I ever wanted to be close with decided somehow or rather I just wasn’t good enough.

I really can’t blame them.

I am not exactly a prized catch.

The problem was I was only me.

Nothing special.

Right now I have a simple rudimentary philosophy for my existence.

I am alive and that means I get to change things.

I may not know where this life would take me but one thing is for sure, it would have been a lot more fun if you come along.

Words never uttered mean more than all the words that were spoken.

Yes I know its Cheesy.

But it’s a cheesy sort of a moment.